A LAPTOP IS PROGRAMMED TO SLEEP AND WAKE ITS SELF AT VARIOUS INTERVALS, AND ON OCCASION WAKE THE ADJACENT LAPTOP SO AS THAT THEY MAY GO TO SLEEP SIMULTANEOUSLY.
I can’t sleep.
what I want is to talk to you while you’re sleeping... but I don’t want to wake you
so I send emails to you in your sleep
because I can’t very well talk to you while you’re asleep, and it probably wouldn’t be all that different than the conversations we’ve been having... I just talk and talk and talk.
this being clearly not the right moment
clearly there is never the right moment
Re: the right moment
maybe one day you won’t be tired
you won’t be hungry
it won’t be bed time
it won’t be the end of your lunch hour
it won’t be bath time
it won’t be dinner time
it won’t be..
I dream of a day when I can sleep knowing that our marriage is more important than sleep.
and all the things that I need to call out on this one of my endless sleepless nights, are held back momentarily by the shame I feel by waking you... so I go on struggling with them internally... in and out of sleep until I simply cannot hold back, and say your name across my pillow to yours until you wake...
reassurances are made, logistics are discussed, and we fall asleep simultaneously after you stop responding...
and I’ll be sleeping when you open your inbox to read my messages from the unconscious hours
setting in motion the next night’s sleeplessness...
[LAPTOPS, CUSTOM SOFTWARE - sculpture]